chris_to_pher

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 23:34:29 GMT

havent updated in a while..
theres been alot going on..some stuff i really dont want to talk about

i started working memorial day weekend..i thought lifeguarding would be fun and i'd be with rach and ashley but we never work together because were at all these different pools..but its not bad i just get paid to do absolutly nothing..its kinda nice sometimes when no one comes and you are getting paid to do whatever you want..sometimes you dont have a thing to do and thats when it gets boring..having a job isnt all that its cracked up to be..i really dont want to work but i need the money so i have no choice but the moneys nice but i feel like im going to get skin cancer because i just bake in the sun for hours..

i only have 9 more days of school! i'm leaving on the 17th and going to myrtle beach for a week with my baby :) im so excited. so i have to take the finals earlier and crap. im so glad this school years over..it started out good then it just sucked balls..seriously there was too much drama for me to handle..im looking foward to next year..ill be getting my liscense soon and it will be great..i cant wait!

(.//Chris_topher\\.)

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 05:29:16 GMT

SPRING BREAK!!
im so glad its spring break because I really need one. I was starting to get sick of everything. I need an attitude adjustment but oh well.

So monday im starting driving lessons and I couldnt be anymore nervous. Im excited and all but I have drove a car like oncee in my lifetime and Im definitly going to crash into something so around 10:00 id advise you to stay off the streets..oh and the sidewalks probably arent safe either.

I am just gonna take this whole spring break as a chance to relax and chill and hang out with some friends I havent hung out with in awhile so if anyone wants to chill hit me up. 732 259 2605

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 03:47:19 GMT

.... i never knew this would be so hard
if this is suppose to be whats best for us why do i feel so bad
i cant breathe i cant think nothing makes sense anymore
my world seems to of just ended
i just want us to be happy again

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 21:11:08 GMT

Grease was an amazing experience and I wouldnt take back any of it. At first I remembered that I wasnt sure if I should try out or not but I'm glad I did. It was so much fun and eventhough I didn't do much I enjoyed every moment of it. I feel proud to be part of an excellent show and program.This show has helped me grow even more.

I am sad that its over all of our hard work has come to an end. Its the last show will have with our seniors. Their will be no more practices or shows and its just sad to know its over. But i still have next two years so its not that upsetting. Some of the things I got out of this experience was more confidence. I started new friendships and healed some old ones.
Getting closer to Carly,Ezra,Marianne,Mauricio,Amanda you guys are great.

All Three shows were great. Two of them being sold out. Last Night was that cast party. It was pretty good. I wass too souped when I tied Mike for Best Looking Superlative. I really didnt think I would get it I was shocked. But I really wanna know who voted me and Kaity as best should be couple thats so funny. I cant wait till next year. I kinda wanna do musical theater but I dont think I can :(.

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Thu, 10 Mar 2005 21:54:53 GMT

i hate days like this when i get so down on myself..its not that im really getting down on myself but other things bring me down and i cant help but thinking about it and it just upsets me..i have always tried to be strong and said i would be and move on..i never really move on i just forget about it until it blows up in my face again..

sometimes i just want to start life over..i hate feeling like this..it feels so much easier to run away from my problems..if only it were that easy...i cant keep wondering what went wrong

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 03:55:15 GMT

ive beeen sick all weekk and i wasnt in school tuesday or wednesday.i feel like i missed a whole lot and i hate falling behind. i have four tests to make up history chemistry [:(] math and math..so i went to the doctor and she told me i had an upper respiratory infection..and i also have a fever..i hate having a fever it makes me feel sooo droowsy and i sweat like crazy i just wanna die and imm so bored theres never anything to do i just walk around the house aimlessly and theres never anything on the tube but soap operas and old people shows

i cant wait for spring...cuz its not to hot and its not to cold..everythings turing green and starting to bloom..soccer starts again eventhough i got suckkyy :(

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 04:43:26 GMT

tonight was such a horrible night..everything is just pissing me off and making me upset..i cant stand it..why cant i be happy anymore..sometimes i think things would be better if i just left and didnt come back..

comment if you care

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 03:46:58 GMT

right now i feel like shit..my nose is running my throat is soar and im all congested..i cant breathe..my chest hurts so bad..i dont feel like doing my homework at all..id go to sleep but ive slept since i got home until 7 when i had to go to play which just made me worse..

it amazes me that some people in this world could be so greedy and sleezy..too take it this far to possibly ruining the life of a family just shows what a scum you are..i feel sorry for you and God will give you what you deserve in the end you can count on it..

ive been emotional lately..things at home are hard..i try my best to keep positive but its hard to keep it going..i wish things could be so much more different..i wished i lived another life or a better one..everything is so stressful..going to school, keeping up my good grades running track doing play..its hard to do that all in one day..i never have any time to just relax and the stress just keeps building..i want to be happy again

I want to be somewhere I can see the roads
A place where every time you breathe a wish comes true
I want to be where love is real
And memories of distant days come to life again..
:(

Mon, 31 Jan 2005 23:37:22 GMT

well today wasnt the best of days during school..it was fine in the morning but in italian our teacher is making us subs and he was asking everyone what they liked and he asked me and i said..
Me: "No i dont eat subs"
Cagg: "why is it against your religion"
Me: "yea cagg its against the catholic religion..no i just dont like them"
Me: " I cant eat cold meat its gross"
does anyone else feel that way? cuz they were making me seem like i was a weirdo..its just really disgusting its all cold and nasty..i cant eat it..yuck

so i go to gym and something bothered me alittle but im over that so whatever and then we do our stretch blah blah and then the gym teachers were like okay all the boys to the wrestling room..were freakkingg WRESTLING..take a moment to let that sink in..the wrestling room is absolutly disgusting..its infested with ringworm and reaks of ass and bleach..then we have to be all on that nasty mat..one i think its a gay sport to begin with and i dont want to do it..im glad i have lab two days a week...after i felt like my skin was crawling and i was all itchy..i wanted to go home cuz i smelt like wrestling mat..subs + wrestling = double gross

then i get to chemistry which just makes me want to shoot myself..during that class i got a stupid pink slip and i got a detention for "cutting class"..okay how stupid is it to give someone a cut if their 5 mins late..if youre gonna give me a cut tell me and ill cut for real..and whats the point of a detention i just sat there and did my homework will all these other kids sat were talking and crap..GEEEE i learned my lesson..next time ill be held 45 mins after school..BIG deal im there anyway

ps mrs palermo pooped on my dreams..she said i couldnt see greek mythology because it wasnt real :( hah

and then my day started to get better and im stalling to do homework because i really dont want to..i dont feel like going to play practice today..im so tired later

Wed, 19 Jan 2005 01:32:41 GMT

i hate mid-termmmmmmmsssssssssssssssssssss!
and i hate chemistry..ive been studying it for like 3 straight hours..

i get to repaint my room by i have no idea what color to pick..i want my room to be very warm looking cuz i dunno..so i was thinking like a deep red but im not sure..any ideas?

i passed my lifeguarding test!!! now i get to be a lifeguard..will you come and visit me..haha could you imagine me actually saving someone..i'd be like uhh nope its gods way of evening out the herd..just kidding ill activate the emergency action plan.

Back to studying..

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 03:08:09 GMT

im sick of being second-rate.

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 04:31:49 GMT

i was so happy today like you couldnt believe! i was like a little boy on christmas day..but anyway friday i left my necklace in the locker room on a bench and i was sooooooo upset..i tried going back to get it but it was locked and all..and i pretty much was kissing it goodbye..the chances of getting it back were sllllimmmm..i was hoping an honest soul found it and did that right thing..so i was depressed without my necklace and i asked jennifer if she could look around and ask some peeps cuz she had a free period and she said sure and shell come back if she gets it or not so later that period she comes in and i thought she was gonna say i dont have it but she started walking toward me and held her fist out and i thought she was gonna be like " nah thought you had that" but she opened her hand and there it was shining in her hand..my eyes were the size of tennis balls and my smile was from ear to ear..i got my baby back..lol THANK YOU SO MUCH JENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!! haha i still cant believe i have it..thank you honest soul also..;-) yeah so thats pretty much it..christmas is vastly approaching and id rather it not..cuz that means grease is coming up soon and yeah..i hate chemistry i wrote out on little squares 200 atomic numbers and symbols..well im tired so night.

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 01:16:44 GMT

today at lifeguarding we were learning how to use the masks to help people breathe and what not..and our classroom is at the YMCA like in a preschool room and it has all these toys and stuff and theres a little bathroom in their and the toilets are so small! so me and ashley decided to use them..haha i felt like a midget..(unpictured: rach taking the photo)

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 01:44:17 GMT

this weekend i had a soccer tournament..the weather was cold and rainy..which sucked..and we sucked

too..but this morning my legs hurt so bad im already out of shape..i better start running before track

or ill be in pain..anyway today i had lifeguard..me and rach are kinda bad but ashley did really

good..we had to rescue people today..i couldnt get rach floating and the guy was like getting mad and

she just let me fall and drown..haha..but come on HOW IMPORTANT IS THAT? lol..Britt left this morning to

go to South Carolina for turkeyday..she wont be home til friday :(.. anyway i saw the orignal grinch

last night..i love that movie..christmas is coming so fast im excited..school tomorrow :(

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 04:24:24 GMT

okay so tonight i was making cinnamon muffins when i recieved a call on my telephone from a restricted number..not knowing what i was getting myself into i answered and was relieved to discover it was ashley..she told me that her, niki and lexi, were outside my house. I went outside and i looked to my left..nothing..then i looked to my right and then nothing..then they told me they were in the driveway..so i start walking across the front lawn and i stumbled over something..i just thought it was a twig so i didnt bother to look down and contined to walk..i stumbled over something again and ignored it..then on the third time i turned around and to my amazement there were a million FORKS sticking in my lawn..(and some knives) i ran inside because i was freaked out..they swore they didnt do it but i made them confess..SOOOO i made them come back and pick every single one out of the ground..but do you really think i would let them get away with it that easily?? NOOOPE soo having sprinklers -conveniently- in my lawn i decided once they were in the middle of cleaning them up to turn them on..hahah..once they ran away i egged them.. the weird part, besides sticking forks in my lawn (come on who does that), was that no one in my house knew this was going on..watch out your house may be next...

last night i went to see the movie SAW..it was a great movie..everyone should go see it..

Mon, 11 Oct 2004 02:16:41 GMT

[14] days til my birthday!

im souped im turning sixteen..you all better get me a present..my birthday last year sucked..so it better be good this year..or ill cry..
im gonna be driving soooooooooooooonnn vrrroom vrrrooooooooommmmmmmmm!

i dont even know why im updating i have nothing to say..i just havent updated in like a year

i love brittany michelle schall <3

Sat, 21 Aug 2004 00:28:45 GMT

my schedule

2..Art 1
3..Italian 2
4..gym
5..honors chemistry
6..lunch
7..honors history 2
8. honors algebra 2
9. honors english 2

i feel like a knife has been stabbed into my heart

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 01:38:21 GMT

im at a loss for words..this is probably the worst thing that could have happened lately

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 05:18:43 GMT

I FINALLYYYYY saw the notebook today..i loved that movie..good movie..enough said..

before i was thinking..and you know how sometimes you feel low..well i was..and then i realized i have two options..i could continue to feel bad about this or i can move on..im deciding to move on..im giving up on this..i've had enough and im not gonna let it bother me anymore..it doesnt mean i dont care anymore its just doing me no good to be sad about it..i guess ive just lost hope..this is the last time im speaking about this..when i say its not gonna bother me i mean its not..end of story.

this is going to be really hard..

Wed, 11 Aug 2004 04:31:02 GMT

phew..i dont think i lost my spot..today i played for the red team also..and he pulled me aside and said i dont want you to think i put you on the black team because you did something wrong or im mad at you its just i need to play on the black team so they could win and its not fair cuz i play both games and some only play one..and he said that when he went home and he was hoping i didnt take it the wrong way.. whooops..so i was excited..

my summers practically over..monday starts rec camp for soccer and then after that its dreaded DOUBLE SESSIONS from like 8:30 to 11 then like 3 to 6 for a week..:( ohhhh nooooooooo and then schools pretty much starting after that..i dont care though..august sucks..

holla at yer boy..translation=(leave me a comment)

Mon, 09 Aug 2004 04:10:23 GMT

tomorrow i was gonna try out to be on mtv's made cuz their having it at the library..i was gonna say "im the jock that would rather rehearse lines for the school play then stand on the defensive line" but i decided not to..what if i actually did and i was chosen..that would be cool

saturday at my singing lessons..she told me that next week im gonna start singing..and im starting to sing in italian..im kinda scared but excited it would be fun..but she was telling me that EVERY_ONE_ of her students does a home recital..HAHAHAHA im not singing for n-o-b-o-d-y..and shes like "oh and you can even be doing duets with my other students.." haha thats so funny..singing is hard though..it looks so easy but you need all this coordination..

tomorrow i got soccer practice..and im gonna "rock" it like mar said..i |n|e|e|d| my spot back..its my |a|n|t|i|-drug..haha

I love you Britt! :)

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 05:31:24 GMT

ive been very pissed off/upset lately..for several different reasons..

1. soccer.. hmm lets see..i think i lost my varsity spot..i hope i didnt cuz if i did id seriously want to switch schools..but my last game my coach told me i would just be staying with the black team next week which is j.v..i think some kid took my spot..i hate this..it just puts so much pressure on me..

2. my sister and her boyfriend..right now i really dont like her so i dont like him..i got personal reasons why i dont like him but im not gonna get into that..besides he just sceeves me out..and so does she..

3.singing..its not really a problem it just adds more pressure to do well which equals stress which equals unhappiness

4. the way things used to be

5. this is a very big one but i cant say..im keeping it myself..its probably the worst too

yeah so i just needed to get that off my chest..britts away for the weekend..so ill be bored..nothing do..i was supposed to go but i couldnt..i wish i would of went..i could escape for awhile..did you ever realize when your on vacation you forget about all your worries and you're happy..then you come home and it starts all over again..

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 03:28:00 GMT

UPDATE: today i found out that im a tenor/baratone but im more tenor..i dont know what it means so would anyone like to explain? well i know they are classifications but and they are ranked by how high or low you can sing i just dont really no..HELP

i just finished reading my book and im sad because i finished and its over..it was an interesting book..hopefully there will be a trilogy..

i feel like im really busy and i dont know why..

sunday's-free

monday's-free

tuesday's-soccer

wednesday's-soccer

thursday's-singing

friday's-free

saturday's-singing

but i love doing both of them so its okay..

this year i hope i make varsity..i think i have a pretty good chance but you never know

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 20:16:52 GMT

Saturday... i woke up and got ready to go to my lesson..i was nervous on the ride..so i got there and we began..it was only really breathing excerises because first you need to know how to breathe properly..and who would of thought that breathing would be hard..you have to coordinate yourself to breathe through your nose and stick out your stomach and keep it tight and you cant move your shoulders which we all do..and then we just worked on pitches..to find my voice..it wasnt that bad..i have to go again on thursday..after that i went home..got ready to go out went to get britt roses..wrapped her stuff then she came over and we exchanged gifts..then we went out to eat at the cheese cake factory..and we waited like an hour and half to eat..got our food and that place has really good food..but this guy came over to our table and was like "im guessing you two are done" but he wasnt guessing it was more like hes telling us were done and i was like "no" and he was like "omg im so sorry" i guess he wanted to kick us out..after dinner we were to full to eat dessert..so we walked around the mall for a while..then left and went to her house to say goodbye to her grandma (shes gone :(..) and then played poker with britt kristen keith and her mom..and I won! no one can beat me im too great..so i slept over there..woke up then went to lexis party..

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 03:50:10 GMT

im feeling really weird about tomorrow..for two different reasons..im exicted yet nervous..aprehensive..so reason why im nervous..tomorrow i start singing lessons..[insert laughs here]..no really..every sat and thursday im going to singing lessons..i dont know why im so nervous..but i really want to do it so its not gonna be so bad

the best part about tomorrow is that its Britt and mines 1 YEAR ANNIVERSERY!! were going out to dinner and stuff like that..ill write about m o s t of it after it happens..I love you baby k3u!